OK, I came home and relaxed I did some reading and typing. The later in the day I had dinner with a friend and I was talking about praying. Then about my day at church and how everyone was so full of joy. I was explaining how I felt when I walked up to the doors and at that time.
There was this rush of emotions that just over came me. This feeling was like I had been lost forever and someone stopped me and said you can relax now! Tears were rolling down my face and I finally took the time to rejoice in the good things that have been happening to me the last couple of weeks.
"When the game is over the only thing you have left is the memories!"
Alma 36:18-24
Sunday, November 30, 2008
My 1st day!
Well today I woke up really early for some reason I could not sleep. It is funny how something new makes you so full of energy and at the sametime I was calm.
I parked my car and walked up to the church doors and I was treated like they had been waiting for me. Here are people who I am meeting for the first time and they all have the arms open. The love is strong in this church and I am so happy that I came to church. Ok, well I kind of know some of the families in this church from working at the high school.
Let me tell you this for the first time in my life I really felt loved today! I have been on this mission to find where I belonged. I have friends in my life and I have always felt alone for a long time now and today that feeling was gone!
"It is never to late to fix a broken heart"
2 Nephi 25:26
Moroni 10:3-5
I parked my car and walked up to the church doors and I was treated like they had been waiting for me. Here are people who I am meeting for the first time and they all have the arms open. The love is strong in this church and I am so happy that I came to church. Ok, well I kind of know some of the families in this church from working at the high school.
Let me tell you this for the first time in my life I really felt loved today! I have been on this mission to find where I belonged. I have friends in my life and I have always felt alone for a long time now and today that feeling was gone!
"It is never to late to fix a broken heart"
2 Nephi 25:26
Moroni 10:3-5
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Baptism!
Well today I am meeting with the missionaries and we are going to my first baptism. To see how things work and get a better understanding of the church. To me this will be a big step in the right direction to living a better life!
Everyday is a chance to be suceesful!
Everyday is a chance to be suceesful!
Friday, November 28, 2008
The Start!
After reading the book for a week i was ready. The more I read the more I became calm the more I felt like this is where I belonged. When the Missionaries came over to give me the first lesson they took me in with open arms. This was very big to me. To me I felt I was just walking around for a long time and someone found me and said it is time to come home. This person was the Lord telling me you can relax you are safe now! For along time I have been wanting to be accepted.
I'm blessed to be given a new life!
I'm blessed to be given a new life!
Missing!
What is missing in my life?
I have been asking myself this question for a long time now! Was it the perfect job, no! Was it having all my friends around, maybe! Well in 2004 I lost my Grandmother and she was very close to me. She lived on the East coast but she always made time to call me to see how i was doing. So when I lost her I became more closed off and started to put up walls around me. Here i am a coach and the Campus Supervisor where everyone comes to me with their problems. I had a pain in my life and I did not know who to go to without looking like a lesser of a man. Everyone looked at me to be the strong one and I was the one hurting inside and I did not know what to do. I have this empty feeling and I did not know how to fill it. I knew I was missing something?
So let me tell you how I got to where I am now. For 15 years I worked at a high school where I was the campus supervisor and a coach. One of the sports that I coached was football. This is one sport that all men should take time and coach. Well after one game I came home and the house was cold and empty. There was no one there to greet me. No one to say how was the game, did you win or lose? Yes, a wife that is what I am missing, right! So here I am searching for a woman to be Mrs.Right. Maybe this can help fill the void in my life. I have to tell you that was not it. I still felt like I was still missing something. Until one day I met this woman who changed the was I viewed the world. How could this person have such a big impact on me? I would spend a lot of time talking to her understanding her and she keep bringing up church. Why? I must be missing something here. Until one weekend she took me to Apple Hill and this is where I saw all these families that were happy enjoying time with each other. What was the glue that was bringing these families together? I found out it was church!
What church has this kind of impact on a family? I was raised in a church and it did not have that kind of impact on me like this. For a long time I gave up on church because I really did not feel that I belonged. One thing that I was willing to do is try different Churches, but I always left feeling like I was not really welcomed. The more she talked to me I found out that the church that made her famliy and others like hers stick together was The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I had to know more about this church and how can I be apart of it.
My best friend had the answer for me. During my time at the high school I had a partner who I worked with and became good friends I knew he was LDS. So I called and said I want to know more. We had dinner and talked and his wife gave me The Book of Mormon. They made some phone calls and later that night I was reading.
Some times the things we are looking for are always there the problem is we do not always pay attention to them!
I have been asking myself this question for a long time now! Was it the perfect job, no! Was it having all my friends around, maybe! Well in 2004 I lost my Grandmother and she was very close to me. She lived on the East coast but she always made time to call me to see how i was doing. So when I lost her I became more closed off and started to put up walls around me. Here i am a coach and the Campus Supervisor where everyone comes to me with their problems. I had a pain in my life and I did not know who to go to without looking like a lesser of a man. Everyone looked at me to be the strong one and I was the one hurting inside and I did not know what to do. I have this empty feeling and I did not know how to fill it. I knew I was missing something?
So let me tell you how I got to where I am now. For 15 years I worked at a high school where I was the campus supervisor and a coach. One of the sports that I coached was football. This is one sport that all men should take time and coach. Well after one game I came home and the house was cold and empty. There was no one there to greet me. No one to say how was the game, did you win or lose? Yes, a wife that is what I am missing, right! So here I am searching for a woman to be Mrs.Right. Maybe this can help fill the void in my life. I have to tell you that was not it. I still felt like I was still missing something. Until one day I met this woman who changed the was I viewed the world. How could this person have such a big impact on me? I would spend a lot of time talking to her understanding her and she keep bringing up church. Why? I must be missing something here. Until one weekend she took me to Apple Hill and this is where I saw all these families that were happy enjoying time with each other. What was the glue that was bringing these families together? I found out it was church!
What church has this kind of impact on a family? I was raised in a church and it did not have that kind of impact on me like this. For a long time I gave up on church because I really did not feel that I belonged. One thing that I was willing to do is try different Churches, but I always left feeling like I was not really welcomed. The more she talked to me I found out that the church that made her famliy and others like hers stick together was The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I had to know more about this church and how can I be apart of it.
My best friend had the answer for me. During my time at the high school I had a partner who I worked with and became good friends I knew he was LDS. So I called and said I want to know more. We had dinner and talked and his wife gave me The Book of Mormon. They made some phone calls and later that night I was reading.
Some times the things we are looking for are always there the problem is we do not always pay attention to them!
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