disheartened

That is how i feel today! I really don't know what to do! I am the kind of guy that likes to have inaction with people. If i don"y it is out of sight out of mind. So if you dont talk to me for 2 to 3 days i will forget about you. Dont feel bad when this happens!

What I don't understand!

They say be a good man! I do that! They say treat people how you want to be treated, I do that! Why is it so hard for people to do the same in return. Well that is all i have to say!

Called to Serve

My week started off on a good foot. Then Tuesday came and I had a job in Orinda. On my way back to the office I made a stop in Oakland. I took lunch at the Temple. I was feeling for something to make the day that much better. So, I walked into the visitor center and looked at the art work on the walls. Talked to the sisters that are working the center and they told me about this upcoming event on the 17th of April. It was a fireside for returned missionaries. They all had a story about helping someone or a family. This made me think about me in my new calling in the ward. Service is what the Church is all about. Blessings is what you get back in return. I want to leave you with this. Show Love! Take time to serve others around you.

Moroni 7:45-48

Topic#72100322

Today I was set apart as the 1st counselor for the Elders Quorum. I was very shocked that they called me. It has only been 1 year and 3 months that I have been a member. This is going to be a good calling for me. Everybody has something to bring to the table and I know that I have something to give. Prayer and Faith!

Topic#72100316

I was reading the Church news and on the inside page there are some messages of inspiration from President Monson. The one that I really liked was "All things possible".

Here you go word for word!

When we obey as did Adam, endure as did Job, teach as did Paul, testify as did Peter, serve as did Nephi, give of ourselves as did the Prophet Joseph, respond as did Ruth, honor as did Mary, and live as did Christ, we our born anew. All power becomes ours. Cast off forever is the old self, and with it defeat, despair, doubt and disbelief. To a newness of life we come - a life of faith, hope, courage, and joy. No task looms too large. No responsibility weighs too heavy. No duty is a burden. All things become possible. - "My Personal Hall of Fame," Ensign, July 1991

Topic#72100312

Wow! I have to start it off with my favorite word. Friday night had friends over had dinner watched some movies and then called it a night. It is good to be around people making each other laugh. Saturday, we have this day planned for Kacie on her birthday and I do not think she even know what we have in store for her. I missed those days of friends coming up with ideas of things to do on your birthday. I guess I am making up for lost time. I start my day off with a pancake breakfast with my Kevin at 830 in the morning have to love it. Let me say that the last couple of weeks have been great. Hanging with the Lindsay family on Sunday and Monday makes everything so much better for the rest of the week. I have gained some great friends also. Something good is right around the corner and I am holding on to the rod, keeping the faith. No one said it was going to easy, if it were easy, no one would even try!

Topic#72100309

Yesterday I went to super FHE at the Temple and I had a very good time. So here I am just sitting back watching everyone work on a project for the Humanitarian aid relief. This is cool all by itself. There had to be over 200 people working and helping each other out. This is another thing about how we come together to help people no matter where they are located we are willing to help. I am learned to be a better man and a better father figure. This is a long road that I have to travel and I am willing to learn the lessons. The week has already started on the right foot for me.

Sometimes you make me smile by Floetry

When I write I play music this helps me get into the mood that I need to been in so my brain flows! This song "Sometimes you make me smile by Floetry" it is wonderful. It brings back memories of when I fell in Love for the first time. How my heart would race when she walked in the room. How time would slow down, five minutes would feel like five hours. I did not want the day to end! It is funny how the mind and body comes in tune with someone you truly adore! Well enjoy and when you read the lyrics think of that someone who makes you warm and fuzzy inside. Let that person know how you feel. No matter what let them in, let them see you inner soul the side of you that you keep hidden. Let that person become closer to you! It is ok; if they truly love you, they will accept you for who you are.

[Intro:]

When I think of you.

(smile)

You make me smile

Sometimes you make me smile,

I can feel you.

I’m missing you.

[Verse 1:]

Where is my heaven?

Where can you be?

How do I get there?

Do I believe?

Where is my sunshine?

Where is your light?

I wanna see you,

So you can make me smile.

[Hook:]

Sometimes you make me smile.

Sometimes you make me smile.

Sometimes you make me smile I can feel you.

I’m missing you.

[Verse 2:]

The most fragile part of me,

Nurses our strongest connection.

You live in my memory.

With a philosophy,

That now offers me completion.

I’m so well.

And it’s strange to be.

I’m torn by misdirection.

You’re my ambassador.

You personify my admiration.

So beautiful.

I live for you.

As you live for me.

[Hook:]

[Verse 3:]

This is such a happy ever after.

You traveled miles,

Now we’re past the finishing line.

We’re starting on time.

My music wears your name,

If they knew where to look.

They’d find it.

You showed me.

I am I,

Because you be.

Forever.

So magnificent.

The most amazing story I ever told.

So much more to be written.

Thank you.

[Hook:]

Sometimes you make me smile.

Sometimes you make me smile.

Sometimes you make me smile, I can feel you.

I’m missing you.

My love,

my Love.

Love.

Missing my love.

I know I can hear you.

I’m missing you.

[Bridge:]

I only pray my skin be as soft as yours.

My wisdom flow so fluidly from my mind.

My eyes speak so truly of my spirit,

And my laughter speak the clarity of time.

You were once the I, that’s now missing you.

You were once the baby, born.

And you had dreams of making a difference in the world.

My journey was formed.

I feel you

(I feel you)

I hear you

(I hear you)

I see you

(I see)

I believe in you

(I be)

But I cry.

(I)

I cry

(I)

My light

(My light)

My light

[repeat x3]

Topic#72100307

Saturday I was out with friends enjoying myself. I have to say that it has been a long time that I just had fun without any pressure. I have been trying to make this connection women and I have been crashing and burning hard. I just want to have fun if she is out there she will make herself known. I have been wearing my heart on sleeve and it has some bruises that need to heal.

Until that day comes I will just be happy hanging with friends. I have made some good friends over the last year. That is one thing I have to say that I really feel a part of the family where ever I go.

If you have "Joy" in your heart let it out! If you keep "Joy" Locked up no one will ever know how much fun you are!

Topic#72100217

I woke up with many things on my mind. One is why do I feel so not at ease. The funny thing is I know part of it. Reading my scriptures but there is more. After being a member for one year, I get the plan of happiness. So now, I want that to happen in my life. I want to get married in the Temple! I am yearning to be close to someone that I can love and who can love me back. I am feeling like a lone wolf just roaming around with nothing to do! No partner in my life makes me ask why am I here! I have to much love in me to keep to myself. I have to share it. If you don’t use the love it turns into other things. There is a balance and everything has to be released.

Topic#72100215

Ok, tonight at F.H.E. we talked about the Spiritual Heart. The Spiritual Heart want to always lead you to the right path. The thing is we choose not to pay attention at times. This in turn gets us in trouble. Funny thing about the Spiritual Heart it knows what is best for us. There are things that can keep the heart in shape and that is praying and reading our scriptures. The other thing we can do is have a game plan and a goal that we can meet every day, every week and every month and in turn, we will meet our major goal for the year. I challenge you make a year goal. What steps would you make to reach that goal? The first thing I am going to do is tell my friends so they know what I am trying to do. That way I have a support staff. Without a support staff, the road will be long and boring. The next thing is 12 monthly goals and then my weekly goals and last my daily goals. In order to reach my yearly I have to meet my daily goals, which are a lot easier to reach! I hope this works and thanks for stopping by and much love.

1. Come up with a Game plan and form a support staff!

2. Set your yearly goal

3. Set your monthly goal

4. Set your weekly goal

5. Set your daily goal

6. Tell your friends about the game plan

You can use this basic 6-step plan for anything in your life. The most important thing is you have to want to be successful!

Waiting!

Long distance

I don’t know what to say! I know that there is something that I feel for you. I wonder when we hang up, do you think about me? When we talk I am at ease. We just met but I am ready to live my life with you. I want to be the man that you come to when you are in pain and need someone to hold you at night. There is nothing that I will not do to make you happy. To hear you laugh and to see you smile is all that I live for. You are the one that I want to make my queen.

Topic-72100203

As the clock ticks, your life slips away.

Did you take time today to say I love you!

We never know how life will end we just pretend.

When it comes, we want to be friends with everyone to the end.

The clock is ticking, what are you going to do?

The Flower and the Butterfly!

In the middle of town is a lonely flower that nobody knows.

Everyday people pass by and not even knowing it is there.

In the valley is a butterfly so beautiful with wings that glide in the air.

Going around looking for the flower with the sweetest scent to attract and make it dance with joy!

One windy afternoon a gust wind blew in and caught the nose of this butterfly.

As this butterfly went to all the flowers in the land trying to find this scent that was, bring joy to its life.

Going for days finally, it came to a town with cars and people.

How could a flower live in this?

Then the sun shot a beam of light to the ground and a flower open up hoping to catch the eye of a passer by but none would look.

As the butterfly came closer, it could see the lonely flower.

This flower was patient waiting day to day for the special moment a butterfly would partake in its scent of life. A sweet scent that would only come from a flower that was full of love would attract a special butterfly! To land on a flower so at peace in a place that was in total chaos.

Just then, the butterfly landed it found the sweet scent of joy, the scent of true bliss!

The Flower and the Butterfly are together now sharing each other’s joy!

Everyday we see flowers and never pay any attention. Some people are a flower and some are the butterfly. Searching for that special flower that has that sweet scent of love. In order to find this flower we need to slow down and take a deep breath! I have to believe that there is a flower out there for everyone if we just slow down. Sometimes you have to travel a far distance for this scent. When you find it you will know. Because of the way they make you feel! if you are the flower don't worry your butterfly is coming, If you are the butterfly in search of that sweet scent of love you have to be open to notice the scent or you will pass it by and not even know it!